psalm 119:32

each day i come back to this chapter i fall more in love with it and hopefully through diligence and prayer i will fall more in love with His word and the Bible itself.

i can't help but meditate on this verse:

I will run in the way of your commandments when you enlarge my heart.

after reading this verse over and over again i find myself hitting my forehead and saying, "idiot, you actually thought you had control of your heart." i am learning that as hard as my mind wills my heart to sway one way or another or listen to truth...my heart only listens to Him. i also find myself wanting and trying to give my heart to everything, anything, anyone, and any passion that catches my fancy. i always end up broken. on my knees. asking why? now i see that it was me the whole time seeking things that will only fail me.

Lord enlarge my heart for YOU!!! i picture myself in a market place begging anyone that passes by to buy my heart and when no one will purchase it, i start offering it for free.

what am i doing?

i come back to this verse.

I will run in the way of your commandments when you enlarge my heart!!

i am finally understanding my hopelessness without Him.

now i am learning diligence, meditation, endurance, strength,...love.

before i take another step further i must be in love with His word.

who are you giving your heart to?