the weirdness begins.

sigh...life.

alot is happening right now.

as of yesterday i am living in a city, a real city, (a not college station or nac city) for the first time in my life. i guess the word to go with it is....overwhelmed. 

how will i ever find places. if i wanted to go somewhere i wouldn't even know where to begin because i have no idea where anything is! that is the good thing about a small town, there is only one of everything. there is only one wal-mart, one movie theater, one of all the restaurants...do you see my dilemma? 

i feel alone.

i find myself asking question like:

why am i here?

what am i doing?

am i here on God's will or mine?

why did i leave my home?

my life is definitely not in control right now. the perfect time to make sure that i am not attempting to control my life but He is in full and total control. my soul is hungry and thirsty. i pray that this summer is used for maturing my childlike faith. i want to know Him more. i am desperate for Him. 

i went to the village church last night and it was INCREDIBLE. i do have one small concern. it is so far away and so big...how do i become an active member in the body?

i deeply desire for that community. after attending living hope it will be hard to find a church that compares and i want the village to be that for me. 

although right now i am scared of what's to come, i do have high hopes for being in dallas this summer. 

1. i need to become a go getter, confident in myself and what the Lord has planned.

2. i am being forced to brake out of my shell in many ways and i am slightly fighting it.

3. i want a part time summer job which will mature me in many ways. i am positive.

4. i hope for a growth in my faith; learning trust, obedience, discipline, love, etc.

we will see.

when i wake i find myself here,

and at the end of the day i find myself here,

at the feet of my beloved savior.

i am taking each day, each hour one at a time.

i miss mindy and michele. it is weird without them near.